Daily 'Procrastinating' Rambles #3

The Randoms ;

1. I'm pretty much scared of everything. Be it the dark or even deep water. The deep water because when i was 3 i nearly drowned at sea. At the time, it was only ankle deep for the grown ups. I was 3 damn you !
2. Every morning when i wake up i usually would take a solid 3 minutes looking up at the ceiling.
3. I love to buy things in excessive and in even numbers. 4 shirts, 2 jeans, 6 cd's, 2 cokes.
4. I love those vintage and odd things on sale mainly because i just do.
5. At the mo, i have a weird obsession over things studded, bold rings, military jackets and loose shirts.
6. I sometimes name my things. Eg, Ritter the camera and Froozy the hair.
7. Whenever going out shopping with mom, i'd spend my time in the bookstore nearby and she'd be shopping for groceries.
8. I never take things seriously. Blood O types never do.
9. I love getting surprising texts in the morning, when i got home from school, and late night calls after midnight.
10. I dont like boys with big muscles like Hulk Hogan. Scares the crap out of me. Literally.

Z

Bart Simpson

The above title has got nothing to do with the rest of this post. " I dont get the Simpsons." Except for that.

Its a Saturday and i've been doing what i've been doing best all my life. Being a total lazy b-tch. It wouldnt be this boring if i'd have a drivers license yes ? Woke up around 9:30 am by the sound of gushes of sprayed water up on the roof. Loud and extremely annoying. Damn i hate roof cleaners. So practically woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Moody and with a big hangover due to the week's total brain squeezer ; school and piles of homework. Not to mention serious athletic training next week and with a semi busted leg too. Kill me softly now.

I need a good day out by myself, shopping for clothes. Okay, sure i need money for that but with a sad puppy face like mine who wouldn't want to give me discounts, hah. And extra money from daddy dearest would be a great addition to self splurging too. At the mo, Pavillion is at the top of my list for lookbookdotnu-ed type clothes. Enter a picture of 'Girl in dyed jeans' above. Look at how pretty those jeans are. Must haves of the month of February. Sue me if my style of clothing are more tumblr-esque nowadays. I get highly influenced easily. Which reminds me, black tights at Cotton On and military-ish jackets should be put on the list of money down the drain. I find myself a fashion conscious these days. From a t shirt and jeans girl to this. A different whole side of me. Surprised ? Me too. Take a deep breath now.

Shaped your mouth into an Oh My God and shake your puny little heads because what you're about to read will make you do just that. I like people easily and it amazes me how i lose interest in them just as fast. Like the time i have a little crush on this guy next to me on a plane and how i easily find him un-delicious the moment i woke up from deep sleep with a jet lag to add. Back to my point. Surprisingly there's a boy who made butterflies come out of their cocoons in my tummy. The feeling i havent felt in quite a while surfaces from deep inside. The moment I realized that, i immediately got out of bed, went to the toilet and washed my face. What shocked me most was how the hell did that happened. Heh, the mystery is yet to be unfolded. I'm too unpredictable that I subconsciously surprised myself. Girlfriends, you can start looking at me with evil glances now. Please, keep on guessing who he is :)

Shit, i failed resolution #35 : Never Crush, Never. *slaps head

Oh and for the record, posts of 2009 are to be ignored. The dark days have left, hah.

Z

Adolescence has left the building

The mere thought of being a high school graduate scares the living hell out of me. Not the fact that i'm scared of the unknown but more of growing up. I am not a dreamer, i dont dream of growing up. Before, i didnt even bother to think about colleges or careers. Reaching 2010, that is all everyone is ever talking about. The future. If i could, then i would willingly travel via time machine to see what it holds for me. Too bad i aint Marty Mcfly and too bad this is the real life. Things happened so fast. Do you ever felt like your mind was someplace else but your body is doing whatever it is you're doing but you dont realize it ? Like at this moment you're reading, your mind is anywhere but here but you know you're reading this. Ahh, i dont make sense. Ignore those few brief lines.

The thing is, i have grown up. I feel like i did. How in the world did this happen i dont even know. Life plays mean cruel jokes on us unexpectedly. Whats more amazing is that life got away with it everytime. That bastard. I have to made a decision. A decision that determines the rest of my years on earth. Decide who gets to stay and who i have to leave behind. Discriminate all the low-lifers who have basically nothing to do but destroy other's life. Hell, dont even look at them. Ignore, and move on.

I'm a 165 cm 17 year old with long jet black hair. I was once a 70 cm 5 year old with short china doll hair. I used to play with toys, now there's boys. I used to sleep on the same bed with my parents, now a different room with my own lock. Life was breezy back when you knew nothing at all, now i knew too much and that left me a in a ruckus and never ending question marks. Innocence torn out by the flesh just by a couple of years. What would i be in a couple more decades ? See what i mean when i say growing up makes me poop in my pants ?

I choose to wait and see.

Z